[A sannyasin says: I have so many problems with my mind in every meditation — I can’t stop it!]
Start doing one thing: every day, for one hour in the morning and one hour in the afternoon, sit and say whatsoever comes in the mind, loudly. So that not only do you think it, you hear it.
Whatsoever it is — if nonsense comes, let it: you are not to edit it and you are not to make it beautiful because it is not meant to be a performance; it has to be that which is inside.
If a few words come — and they will — if the sentence is not even complete and the words stop, then stop; don’t complete it. Then if something else comes, say that. But whatsoever comes, just watch it, articulate it, say it… whatsoever it is!
You have that garbage in the mind, it has to be thrown. You don’t throw it so it goes on revolving inside. Nothing is a problem; you are creating a problem.
People go on keeping that garbage, they don’t throw it. It is as if you are accumulating garbage in your house and you don’t throw it outside so it stinks and when it becomes too much you are disturbed. Wherever you move it is always there and everywhere you come across it. It has to be thrown!
The mind creates a certain garbage just as the body does — it is part of life. You eat something: a part of it is digested — becomes your blood, your bones, your flesh, your marrow — but ninety percent of it is just rubbish that has to be thrown out.
If you don’t throw it you will accumulate it in your stomach and then you will be creating poison for your body.
The mind functions in exactly the same way on a subtle plane.
You hear somebody talk, you are hearing me talk, you read a book, you are in the market, you listen to people, you see a movie, you listen to the radio, you read the newspaper, all this is going in. Part of it will be digested — a very small part of it is worth digesting; the remaining — what will you do with it? It will go on revolving.
That’s why you know that the content is not important: the content is not important. When somebody is constipated it is not that he is holding gold in his stomach — it is just rubbish, excreta. And that’s what goes on moving in the mind: excreta.
First many thoughts will come. After a few days you will see thoughts are not coming but only fragmentary words… not even thoughts but just words.
Then by and by you will start feeling that even words are no more coming but sounds — gibberish. When gibberish starts coming, come back; then you have touched the right level.
Now thoughts are not coming, words are not coming, gibberish is coming. That means that much is cleaned and then meditation will be easy.
This you have to continue at least for six months — this will be your meditation — and you will be completely free
*Far Beyond the Stars*
(A Darshan Diary)