Mysterious candle

Just close your doors, make the room dark and light a small candle. Sit near the candle with a very loving attitude — rather, with a prayerful attitude. Just pray to the candle, “Reveal yourself to me.” Take a bath, throw cold water on your eyes, then sit in a very prayerful mood before the candle. Look at it and forget everything else. Just look at the small candle — the flame and the candle. Go on looking at it. After five minutes you will feel that many things are changing in the candle. They are not changing in the candle, remember; your eyes are changing.

With a loving attitude, with the whole world closed out, with total concentration, with a feeling heart, just go on looking at the candle and the flame. Then you will discover new colors around the flame, new shades which you were never aware were there. They are there; the whole rainbow is there. Wherever light is, the rainbow is there because light is all color. You need a subtle sensitivity. Just feel it and go on looking at it. Even if tears start flowing, go on looking at it. Those tears will help your eyes to be more fresh.

Sometimes you may feel that the flame, the candle, has become mysterious. It is not the ordinary candle you brought with you; it has taken on a new glamor, a subtle divineness has come into it. Go on doing this. You can also do this with many other things…

Osho – Book of Secrets


Sitting silently

Let me explain the basic, the very basic of meditation to you.

Whenever you are sitting, just sit silently like a statue. Just feel spacious… that you are space.

I am not saying that from the very beginning thoughts will disappear or feelings won’t arise. They have their momentum, they have been always there, so they will continue for the time being, but you remain indifferent, unattached. If a thought arises let it be so but keep your space undisturbed.

The thought will arise like a bubble on the surface of your space and will be gone because no thought can stick for long; it is very momentary.

So no need to be antagonistic; if a thought arises just watch it very indifferently, as if you are utterly unconcerned. If it arises, okay; you don’t have any prejudice, you don’t have any liking, disliking.

When you like and dislike, you invite, you attract, you rebel, you react. When liking and disliking is no more there, a thought will arise out of the old momentum.

The old habit dies hard… it will come because of the old habit; you remain unconcerned. It will come and it will go.

You will see it coming, confronting you, waiting for your attitude of being friendly or antagonistic, or something. The thought will wait and look at you, but don’t be concerned at all.

If it stays, good, if it goes, good: don’t have any say, don’t say anything, and you will see it going.

When it has gone there is again silence.

Again a thought will arise, but if one remains indifferent by and by bigger intervals will happen: a thought will pass and another will not be coming. There will be a bigger gap and the gap widens and by and by and slowly, slowly, one day one is simply surprised: minutes have passed and not a single thought has arisen, no desire has arisen, no dream has flashed.

Then you will have for the first time the taste of what I mean by space, spaciousness, emptiness.

And once you have tasted it, it is incomparable. No life experience can be compared to it; not even the orgasm, the sexual orgasm, has anything in it compared to that inner space.

It is very orgasmic, it is tremendous joy and at the same time very cool — great ecstasy without any excitement. And that is the beauty of it: when excitement comes, ecstasy is disturbed.

When the mind is no more there — when the tiny mind has disappeared, that tiny self is no more there, when nothing defines you and you are infinite — you are out of your small self, you are standing as if out of yourself, out of the old self and just watching the thoughts unconcerned. This is going to happen.

So give more and more time to it. Whenever you have any time, just sit silently; this way is perfectly good.

*Far Beyond the Stars*
(A Darshan Diary)

Freedom from wandering mind

[A sannyasin says: I have so many problems with my mind in every meditation — I can’t stop it!]

Start doing one thing: every day, for one hour in the morning and one hour in the afternoon, sit and say whatsoever comes in the mind, loudly. So that not only do you think it, you hear it.

Whatsoever it is — if nonsense comes, let it: you are not to edit it and you are not to make it beautiful because it is not meant to be a performance; it has to be that which is inside.

If a few words come — and they will — if the sentence is not even complete and the words stop, then stop; don’t complete it. Then if something else comes, say that. But whatsoever comes, just watch it, articulate it, say it… whatsoever it is!

You have that garbage in the mind, it has to be thrown. You don’t throw it so it goes on revolving inside. Nothing is a problem; you are creating a problem.

People go on keeping that garbage, they don’t throw it. It is as if you are accumulating garbage in your house and you don’t throw it outside so it stinks and when it becomes too much you are disturbed. Wherever you move it is always there and everywhere you come across it. It has to be thrown!

The mind creates a certain garbage just as the body does — it is part of life. You eat something: a part of it is digested — becomes your blood, your bones, your flesh, your marrow — but ninety percent of it is just rubbish that has to be thrown out.

If you don’t throw it you will accumulate it in your stomach and then you will be creating poison for your body.

The mind functions in exactly the same way on a subtle plane.

You hear somebody talk, you are hearing me talk, you read a book, you are in the market, you listen to people, you see a movie, you listen to the radio, you read the newspaper, all this is going in. Part of it will be digested — a very small part of it is worth digesting; the remaining — what will you do with it? It will go on revolving.

That’s why you know that the content is not important: the content is not important. When somebody is constipated it is not that he is holding gold in his stomach — it is just rubbish, excreta. And that’s what goes on moving in the mind: excreta.

First many thoughts will come. After a few days you will see thoughts are not coming but only fragmentary words… not even thoughts but just words.

Then by and by you will start feeling that even words are no more coming but sounds — gibberish. When gibberish starts coming, come back; then you have touched the right level.

Now thoughts are not coming, words are not coming, gibberish is coming. That means that much is cleaned and then meditation will be easy.

This you have to continue at least for six months — this will be your meditation — and you will be completely free

*Far Beyond the Stars*
(A Darshan Diary)

Tratak – the technique of gazing

IF you look at a flame for a long time for a few months, one hour every day, your third eye starts functioning perfectly. You become more alert, more lightfilled.

The word tratak comes from the root which means tears, so you have to look at the flame until tears start flowing from the eyes. Go on staring, unblinking, and the third eye will start vibrating.

The technique of gazing is not concerned really with the object, it is concerned with gazing itself. Because when you stare without blinking your eyes, you become focussed, and the nature of the mind is to be constantly moving. If you are really gazing, not moving at all, the mind is bound to be in a difficulty.

The nature of the mind is to move from one object to another, to move constantly. If you are gazing at darkness or at light or at something else, if you are really gazing, the movement of the mind stops. Because if the mind goes on moving, your gaze will not be there; you will go on missing the object. When the mind has moved somewhere else, you will forget, you will not be able to remember what you were looking at. The object will be there physically, but for you it will have disappeared because you are not there; you have moved in thought.

Gazing means, tratak means, not allowing your consciousness to move. And when you are not allowing the mind to move, in the beginning it struggles, struggles hard, but if you go on practicing gazing, by and by the mind loses struggling. For moments it stops.

And when mind stops there is no mind, because mind can exist only in movement, thinking can exist only in movement. When there is no movement, thinking disappears, you cannot think, because thinking means movement – moving from one thought to another. It is a process.

If you gaze continuously at one thing, fully aware and alert … because you can gaze through dead eyes, then you can go on thinking – only eyes, dead eyes, not looking. Just with dead men’s eyes you can look, but your mind will be moving. That will not be of any help. Gazing means not only your eyes, but your total mind focused through the eyes.

So whatsoever the object – it depends: if you like light, it is okay, if you can like darkness, good. Whatsoever the object, deeply it is irrelevant – the question is to stop the mind completely in your gaze, to focus it, so the inner movement, the fidgeting, stops; the inner wavering stops. You are simply looking, not doing anything.

That deep looking will change you completely. It will become a meditation.

Finding your star

GET more and more in tune with the stars. Whenever there are stars in the night and the night is clear, just lie down on the earth and look at the stars. If you feel attached to a certain star, then concentrate on that. While concentrating on that think of yourself as being a small lake and that the star is reflected deep inside you. So see the star outside and see it reflected inside you. This will become your meditation and a great joy will arise out of it. Once you get in tune with it you can simply close your eyes and see that star, your star; but first you have to find it.

In the East they have a myth that everybody has a certain star. All those stars are not for everybody, everybody has a particular star. That myth is beautiful.

As far as meditation is concerned, you can find one star which belongs to you and to which you belong. There will arise a certain affinity between you and the star because we are made of light, as are the stars. We vibrate as light as do the stars. You can always find a star with which you simply feel in tune, which is on the same wave-length. That is your star; meditate over it. By and by allow it inside. Look at it, then close your eyes and see it within. Open your eyes; look at it. Close your eyes; see it within. Soon you will find it is within you. Then whenever you close your eyes you will find it there.

And when you start feeling it inside, feel it just near the navel; two inches below the navel. Deposit it there; go on depositing it and soon you will feel great light arising inside you as if a star has already in reality burst forth; and it will not be only that you feel it, others will start feeling it – that a certain kind of light has started surrounding your body, your face has become it. Just look for a few nights and you will be able to find your star.

Full moon meditation

The next time the full moon is due, start this three days before. Go outside in the open sky, look at the moon and start swaying. Just feel as if you have left everything to the moon – become possessed.
Look at the moon, relax and say to it that you are available, and ask the moon to do whatsoever it wants. Then whatsoever happens, allow it.
If you feel like swaying, sway, or if you feel like dancing or singing, do that. But the whole thing should be as if you are possessed – you are not the doer – it is just happening. You are just an instrument being played upon.
Do this for the three days before the full moon, and as the moon becomes fuller and fuller you will start feeling more and more energy. You will feel more and more possessed. By the full moon night you will be completely mad. With just one hour’s dancing and madness, you will feel relaxed as you have never been before.

The Guillotine Meditation

ONE of the most beautiful tantra meditations: walk and think that the head is no more there, just the body.

Sit and think that the head is no more there, just the body.

Continuously remember that the head is not there.

Visualize yourself without the head. Have a picture of yourself enlarged without the head; look at it. Let your mirror be lowered in the bathroom so when you see, you cannot see your head, just the body.

A few days of remembrance and you will feel such weightlessness happening to you, such tremendous silence, because it is the head that is the problem. If you can conceive of yourself as headless – and that can be conceived, there is no trouble in it – then more and more you will be centered in the heart.

Just this very moment you can visualize yourself headless. Then you will understand what I am saying immediately.

Osho – Orange Book